Make room for opportunity in your life

Is there something on your list that you keep putting off from finishing? Has it been there for a while? What is holding you back from picking up the task with both hands and plowing through it.

For me it's preparing the final taxes for The Little Hat Company. It's putting together the necessary paperwork to put the company to bed and be ready to move on to the next thing. Actually it is what I promised myself I would be doing at this moment that I am blogging. I know that I am in limbo until I finish this task. I know with my heart that there is no room for opportunity to come knocking in my life while this company's shell still sits at my desk and I'm still taking calls about the business. Why is it so hard to let some things go and others seem to just slip away on their own?

This past weekend was the service for my Step Dad. I met David when I was in junior high and he married my mom when Aaron turned two thirteen years ago. I felt like an observer for the day. I sat back quietly and watched our families interacting with guests and old friends. I had a very surreal feeling of peace. It wasn't on purpose that I wasn't engaging with everyone I just felt good sitting still and quiet.

David came home with hospice on Tuesday and died the following Monday. I feel grateful for the opportunity to be with him and my Mom for a few days during thate week. It was an awe inspiring experience full of patience, love, and peace. I truly felt more connected to God in this time of transition than ever before in my life. I felt as though I was being given a glimpse of something bigger and better in store for us all and a message to us that ultimately in the end everything works out. David spent the three days of the time I was there in and out of lucidity. Time was spent talking about what was on t.v., who was visiting, what he could have to eat, and how much he loved my mother. Than in an instant he would be talking to my father who passed away years ago, his first wife who passed from Cancer, and my Grandmother who had also passed. He brought forward messages, most of which we had such a hard time deciphering but others that were heard loud and clear. I saw my mother for the women I truly admire and love more than any other adult in this world. I saw her for putting her needs to the side to make sure that David felt comfortable and loved during his last days on Earth. She gave him her all and he appreciated it with loving words, and fearless attitude towards leaving her.

My mom had left to grab the mail and David said to me from his hospice bed, "Jen I'm screwed". I stood up from the puzzle we had set up next to his bedside and took his hand. I laid my head on the pillow next to his and asked him what he was talking about. He told me that the Ship was leaving soon and someone would have to drag him to the dock. His legs weren't working anymore. He was right they weren't working. I said , "David I'll drag you to the dock" and then thought better about what I had just said and changed my response,"David I won't drag you to the dock, I'll carry you on my back." His response was "That's Good" and then selfishly I said to him 'anyways David you're not screwed I am."

David turned his head towards me and said "Jen you're not screwed. Everything in life is working out for you. Just give it time."

I knew in my heart that what David was saying to me was a special gift. I knew as I spent time with him and he began getting more and more visitors from the other side that he was being prepared for a very special journey and I felt nothing but peace and happiness for him to be receiving these great gifts in the near future. He knew that my Mom was being left on Earth with lots of people that love her and respect her. David knew that we would all be taking care of my mom and in those days I witnessed a faith in David that I have never seen in anyone else. He carried such an immense level of trust and faith in his situation and that was what he was trying to impart to me and all of us before he left.

David I want you to know that I heard you and I own the gift you gave me last week. I own it knowing there will always be struggle and trials but ultimately we are given everything we need to make sure that it works out in the end. I believe David and I'm forever thankful for the opportunity to experience your final moments with you and my Mom. I also learned what we think is the most important thing in our life is something that we can give up when faced with our own truth if we are accepting. Being with David at the same time The Little Hat Company came to its final day gave me amazing perspective and knowledge of what is important in my life and what I need to do for my children.

Opportunity is always just around the corner - it's just waiting for you to make room in your life in order to accept it and embrace it.